"Drops of water form an Ocean", "Rome was not built in a day". "Journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." I have heard many sentences of these kinds that try telling us something but its only now that I realize the importance and magnitude of each of these sentences.
I would always give up on very minute things. For instance, if I am unscrewing a earring and unable to, I would just give up. If my spellings went wrong in an email, I would always tell myself its okay as long as she understands the message, I would not bother about the way I carry myself and often look unkempt, and I would not bother to meditate everyday believing giving up some days, but doing it for the majority of days was absolutely all right.
One of those magical moments, when I sat on my bed, undoing a chain which had got badly knotted up, when my spiritual mentor, Rajan's words echoed in my ears, "Attitudes don't care where you shape them but once shaped they become a part of you." As I was about to give up, I told myself don't... if I give up on this, then won't it become a habit? A habit of giving up. A habit which will hurt me in a very big way in life because I will not give my best and think giving up is an all right practice – because my mind would tell me you give up all the time, why make it an exception this time? I realized, if I give up this little work right now, tomorrow I may be convinced to give up my dream , just because it looks a little difficult.
It's been proven scientifically that even if your spellings are incorrect and the first and the last alphabets are in their place, the word can be read by the human mind. However, we all know how frustrating it is to read anything which has many spelling errors. The mind gets tired, the individual gets frustrated and in all probability the communication you want to convey gets lost in the misspellings. Today I realize that its not as small as putting an extra 'e' here or a wrong 'o' there its an attitude of doing things in a hurried, un-careful way which could lead to big problems for me. Today it just looks like a few misspelled words to my best friend in a letter tomorrow it could be some serious errors in a report that I may have to present at work or an article I may have to write for a magazine and I may actually be judged wrongly for just a few misspelled words, which became a habit while writing mails to friends!
"Who is going to look at me?" Was a question constantly asked by me, when anybody would ask me to dress up a little neatly and nicely. Thank god! I have realised that small things, matter big. How can i dream of being a personality, till I don't learn the art of carrying myself well, how can I expect the whole world to see me someday as an example when today, I don't care about who is looking at me. I am not referring to being beautiful from the outside or be a stage model, but I am just referring to being neat, presentable. I always thought brains alone matter, but now I realize that for most people the first and lasting impression is going to be with the way I carry myself. And come to think of it, I would not like someone unkempt to be around me, so why would someone else like it? Now even when I am at home, or go down just to buy bread, I ensure that my hair is combed, my clothes are not dirty and I carry myself well. Its important to take care of these things now, before it becomes an attitude and I end up going even for an interview in a shabby way.
I complain if God gives me one thing but not another, and yet I realize I have been so casual in my own remembrance of God. When I am irregular in my practice of meditation its all right, but if God upsets my plans for something it is not so. Now I realize, that my attitude towards meditation is actually my message to Life that some days I want to feel the divine presence, other days I don't. It was somewhere a relationship of convenience, not of conviction. I am going to meditate regularly henceforth because I can not risk developing a wrong attitude towards God.
Thank you God, for reminding me that you exist, not in the big things alone, but in the small things. And if I get the small things right, chances are I will succeed in the big ones too. Thank you for reminding me that attitudes don't care where they are shaped, and often they are shaped in the little moments of my life, so I will be more careful. How true goes the popular quote, "Show me a man who cannot bother to do little things and I'll show you a man who cannot be trusted to do big things."
Anita Pansari and Megha Bajaj
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